Starved, now sick, How to fix my diet?

I've been struggling with an eating disorder for years. I gained weight over a two year span when I was recovering, going from 98 to 108, then up to 112, then back to 110. (I'm average height, these numbers aren't in the extreme range). I was happy for a little bit then just miserable when people told me how I gained weight and shared their judgements. I'm not happy either, I want to be as skinny as I was. I tried working out and eating right and my weight just stayed 108-110. I told myself I wouldn't starve myself but for months my weight wouldn't budge. I started starving myself again and working out. I'm down to 105 and I'd like to get to 103 and stay there as it is skinny enough for me to be happy and not skinny enough to die from. I'm trying to eat at least one meal a day. However my stomach is a mess, I can barely leave the house. I feel sick. I know it's my fault, I know I'm not suppose to starve myself.How can I fix my diet to not gain weight but also not be sick all the time? I don't want to be sick, I just want to be skinny.

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you forgot to list your height. Here's a good low-carb food/exercise plan:Breakfast: Cook 9-grain cereal (from health food store) in water with rolled oats and wheat bran. Make a pot of it on weekends and nuke 1/2 cup each morning. Then stir in low fat milk or yogurt, banana, walnuts and berries. Drink hot Ovaltine. Breakfast should be your largest meal of the day to raise blood sugar level which falls during the night.Lunch: Egg, tuna or turkey ½ sandwich on multi-grain (not just whole wheat) bread with bean or alfalfa sprouts, yogurt, fresh fruit. If you had meat loaf for dinner, bring a meat loaf sandwich on whole grain bread (NO mayo). On cold days, a squatty thermos of hot chili, split peas with ham, or beef stew.Snacks: Fresh (not canned) fruit. Nothing ever from a vending machine. Fruit smoothies. Dinner: salad with white meat chicken and fresh (not canned) veggies: tomatoes, 2 kinds of lettuce, 2 kinds of shredded cabbage, shredded or sliced carrots, alfalfa or bean sprouts, zucchini, green or red peppers, hard boiled eggs, brussels sprouts, broccoli, cauliflower, tofu, cottage cheese, spinach...Instead of dressing, squeeze 1/4 tomato over it. Or homemade bean/vegetable soups; great way to recycle leftovers.Or grilled fish with steamed veggies.Or omelet: In blender, whip together eggs, tofu, cottage cheese, onions, garlic powder. Cook with mushrooms, chopped tomatoes and green or red peppers. Avoid junk food, fast foods, pastries, desserts, anything with sugar (cancer cells feed on sugar), gluten, syrup (even canned fruit in syrup), peanut butter, fat/grease (pork, wieners, chops, bacon, salami, pizza, chips, fries), pasta, potatoes, ramen, popcorn, white bread, rice, canned veggies, ice cream (it's lard + chemicals), chips, tobacco, alcohol (kills brain cells) and coffee (carcinogenic). No oil except olive and mac nut. Sodas (loaded with toxins; leads to stroke, obesity, kidney damage, high BP and inhibits bone growth in kids. To keep your skin clear, drink water, tea, veggie juice, unsweetened fruit juice.Join a gym; they have all the equipment and staff to show you how to use it to get the look you want to achieve, but you have to ask them. Much cheaper than buying your own equipment. Go hiking, biking, jogging, bowling, swimming, rowing, jump rope, play tennis, badminton, volleyball, soccer, jumping jacks, lift weights, trampoline? To tone your tummy, do sit ups, push ups, pull ups, leg lifts, butt raises and crunches.For more energy, take Super B complex.

Other Answers:

• EAT SOME FOOD
• ...I know how you feel... Don't worry, you're not doing a completely bad thing. My parents are monitoring my body so much, I wish I can starve and not eat a meal...Just start eating healthy and colorful food, but trick is to CHEW SLOWLY. It helps your digestive system. Second, DRINK WATER. I mean it. If your urine has color, it means your dehydrated. Drink plenty of water. Water has 0 calories so drink up! :)Continue working out! It'll burn calories and help you tone up!"Skinny" is not a pleasant word to some people. I presume you want to be slim. G luck. :)
• Wrong diet. What u actually have to do is not to starve, but make fasting ur lifestyle. 18 hours of fasting, try it.From 6 am in morning to 12 noon, u can eat and drink anything ( but dont be greedy), then, from 12.01 pm to the next day 5.59 am, dont eat at all, but u can drink any fluids which are not high in calories. Try it. For more, find "OCD" ebook ( its free, but not in english, so u probably have to translate it).