I'm afraid to go out in the light.. I get called ugly everyday. I just want the freedom to be able to go outside without worrying about people calling me ugly. I look like a bloody idiot holding scarves and my hands up so people don't see how ugly I am, plugging my ears so I don't hear them call me ugly but I'd rather them laugh at me for that, than what my face looks like.. it's a shame because i have a half decent body.. :( (except for my stomach though) lol but my face.. god.. I look like a man. My forehead is too big, my chin and jaw are very masculine.. like I actually believe i am the ugliest person on the planet. Even when i went to the bank i heard the teller say "she's ugly." and I don't have BDD or anything like that. I'm actually really ugly and don't say I'm paranoid because I'm not but what are the chances? It interferes with what I do, my confidence (obviously), I look like some kind of demented retard for when I actually HAVE to go outside (my mom making me get milk and then whining and complaining because they didn't have the ice cream she asked for and making me go to another store a few blocks away). My mom is delusional and seems to think I look normal. I don't know if maternity just makes you see your kids as beautiful even if they clearly aren't but I know for a fact I am NOT PARANOID. A group of kids were laughing at me. If I don't listen to my mom she takes my computer away for a day. She thinks I'm just trying to disrespect her when I just don't want to be seen in public. I think the only thing that kept me from "ugly," remarks about my appearance was the puffy face I had from my ED. Now that I beat my eating disorder completely I just look like an ugly man. I can't stop hitting myself because of my appearance. I hit myself with the remote so hard I actually made myself bleed at my hairline. My life is never going to get better if I look like this. Like honestly. I lost my last friend because I am just so depressed.. my lack of excitement and how short-tempered I had gotten has pushed her away, and it's sad because we've been friends since we were 6 years old. How unwilling I am to talk around other people also played a part. (She's an extreme extrovert) I've always been introverted but now I've just turned completely and 100% unsocial (It's been almost a year since we've seen eacother). I think if I could just look like a normal girl I might be able to build myself some confidence if I go to social anxiety therapy but I'm unwilling to go looking like this I could have friends and not be a depressed hermit anymore. Believe me please when I say I'm ugly and don't tell me it's all in my mind because it's not. My face shape has changed drastically since I gained weight. I think because I'd been underweight for my body type and hence I probably delayed my skeletal growth/change and once I gained the weight it changed to what I would have looked like had it not been for anorexia which quickly spiraled into bulimia. I have no desire to do ANYTHING, no dreams, no hope, no goals and i feel dead inside. I really feel like I need plastic surgery. I am a really sensitive person and can not handle CONSTANTLY being called ugly by strangers. What are the chances.. also is there a chance my testosterone might be too high after anorexia hence making my face look really masculine? I can't stand it anymore. i feel like I'm not going to make it through this year looking like this..im not bulimic anymore just to point that outim not trolling i have no one to get any advice from IRL and im not kidding or trolling about being uglyyou don't know what this feels like@Kitten: Thanks but it really stands out how masculine my face is.. like I've actually lost the fun of shopping for clothing because I feel nothing can make up for my face. It's not just a couple features that are the problem it's my whole face.. :/ my head is too long, my nose is too big, my skin is pasty white and if i try to tan it results in freckles which don't look nice on me at all. I miss the kid I used to be before i started comparing myself to others and for awhile i was a pretty disgusting personi 100% actually look like a man. I thought putting on a little weight would have fixed that I honestly wonder about my testosterone levels
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Hitting yourself is not going to do anything in improving your looks. You can only get free cosmetic surgery for MEDICAL reasons, not vanity issues. I was told this when I had my two moles removed. They told me that I had to pay up front and that they would send them to a lab and if they found cancer in them, I would be reimbursed. My mom has a huge problem with her testosterone levels, all it does is increase her acne and maybe a little extra hair.While I am strongly for loving who you are and not trying to hide it, you can perform MIRACLES with the right makeup, hair and clothes. You need to save up some money and go to a salon or beauty counter and get them to do your makeup. Tell them your insecurities and what you want to hide/emphasize. Get them to do your makeup in a way that will make you look better, and make sure they show you and teach you what they're doing so you can repeat it at home. There are also a lot of really smart people on youtube who know their way around a makeup counter. There is a product and fix for almost anything (yes, even your big nose). You can even get some self-tanner and bronzer to fix the whole pasty issue. Use highlighter and contouring to soften the shape of your face. Find colours that are more feminine. After you've done this, go to a salon and get them to give you a cut and colour that emphasizes and compliments your face. Then buy some flattering clothes. At every single one of these places, there will be helpful people who will go out of their way to make you feel good about yourself.If you, for whatever reason, have no way to save up the money yourself. I'm sure that your parents would be more than happy to contribute if it would mean getting their daughter to live a normal life. There's also tools on the internet that you can use to raise money without ever having to leave the house. GoFundMe is an online fundraising website that only takes a very small chunk of what you earn. You can make a paypal and put a donate button on all of your pages. You can take one of your skills and utilize it to provide a service to people. Make jewellery, art or write. Whatever you think that people would be interested in.If you need any help with your makeup, I'd love to help you. My email is brittany.tempel@gmail.com.
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- Instead of freaking out like I usually do I'll just tell you my awfully similar experience ice had.When I was 9 I moved into this exciting new place, considering I was 9, I had no self esteem issues and was just a normal kid like I should be.But all that changed when my neighbor moved in. She was my age but she was ALWAYS prettier than me. She had a beautiful little face, gorgeous hair, nice clothes, she was just pretty. From then on, I started getting called ugly by pretty much every kid I met. My teeth were horrible, my nose was broken and crooked and big, my hair was fiat and badly cut, and it was just...horrible.When I turned 13 these boys moved in. They of course swarmed to my neighbor, they both dated her and bullied me very badly because I was ugly. Even the adults were mean to me, they would make fun of me behind my back even though they were grown women. Whenever my neighbor's sister would take pictures of everybody like the neighbor kids she always asked me to step out of the picture.I was pretty much alone 24/7 because of these guys. Everybody would laugh at me and call me names and literally told me I'd be alone forever. The things they said stuck wyth me my whole life.At 15 (last year, in fact) I went through a severe depression because of my looks. It started with someone taking video of me. And I can't explain to you how incredibly sick I felt upon seeing it. It was disgusting. My eyes, my mouth, my structure in general. Every body had potential to be pretty but I was stuck in this disgusting, horrid, body.I would lock myself in my room for 4 hours a day just freaking out. Crying hysterically, hurting myself, breaking things, and feeling extremely suicidal. That was the worst point in my life. There's this feeling of panic, not being able to change. To have to live in this absolutely horrific embodiment that is myself. I felt like a monster like no number of surgeries could fix my bone structure. All of my dreams died too because who why would anyone let this creature be successful. I was on the verge of suicide for a good while.Every person I laid eyes on was more important than me. I was literally nothing in the eyes of anyone. Tbh I'm not sure when things took a turn, but, I started really seeing myself differently. I started believing I wasn't ugly. Then, I started acting confident. Then, I started getting into makeup, then I started exercising on a daily basis, changed my hair and My attitude and suddenly I felt like the opposite of that nasty beast. Then I realized that its ALL the way you think. Honestly. Right now, if you were to pick a cute outfit, a tad of makeup and a cute you went out and enjoyed yourself, smiled and didn't care about a thing, the people around you would see you so differently. SO differently. Its amazing what that can do.And physically, you're so young. You'll grow into your features. Everyone does, so many beautiful famous people looked really weird at this age. A lot of them went through what you're going through. So many of them would tell you not to give up hope because its amazing how much you can change physically. There are so many safe things you can do to improve yourself, anyways.Honestly you need to embrace your features and work with them. Learn to love all your flaws, and you'll be so happy. Trust me. I'd know...
